Giving Up Introspection
February 8, 2009 at 2:38 am | In Musings | 2 CommentsI spent last evening at the Bethel School of the Supernatural class that our church is sponsoring. Bill Johnson, the Senior Pastor of Bethel Church in Redding, CA, was talking about how the enemy can deflect us by getting us to over-scrutinize our motives. By constantly analyzing our motivations in the desire to be more holy we may actually be letting the enemy keep us from looking at Jesus while our eyes are focused on ourselves. His message really hit me where I live.
I have lived my life trying to win acceptance. First from my Dad and then from others. I have always been afraid that I wasn’t acceptable and was constantly afraid of doing the wrong thing. That translates to my relationship with God as well. In order to not do the wrong thing, I often found myself not doing anything. The freedom I found in being able to put a name to my dilemma was profound. Moments of self-discovery can lead to new vision. I’m anxious to see where this one leads.
Blessings,
Mark
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Hi Mark –
I also struggled with this for many years (and still do at times) – but I’ve adopted Paul’s perspective in I Cor 4: 1-5. “I do not even judge myself” – for we can’t know our own motives – but God will bring them all to light eventually, so we are not supposed to judge each other (or ourselves) before the time. God is the one who will sort me out; in the meanwhile I keep walking forward. Hope this helps!
Mary
Comment by rhymerchick — February 12, 2009 #
Ah, yes…this message by Bill Johnson has been radically life-changing for me. To think that when God said He made me a new creation, He really meant it!
I look forward to reading more of your thoughts as we journey the e*r path together.
Blessings
Comment by Heather — February 18, 2009 #